A thought on Good Friday

Technically, it’s Saturday now, but I had this thought yesterday at NewSpring’s first Good Friday service ever . . . . It was a very different kind of service for NewSpring. Usually we’re pretty excited and wild and loud and crazy; it’s a lot of fun. But this service was very somber. Solemn. Dark. Sad. It was a wonderful representation of how people must have felt when Jesus died.

As the service progressed and we sang and listened to the last words Jesus spoke before He died, I was overwhelmed with the realization that even if it had just been me, He would have done it all again. He died–suffered the way He did–for the whole world, but it was personal. He did it for me. Because of me. I can’t help but wonder why when I think about how I’ve thanked Him for His sacrifice.

What stuns me into shocked silence is remembering that He knew I would betray Him. That He knew I would disappoint Him and let Him down and break His heart . . . again and again and again . . . Even before He saved me, Jesus knew I would fail Him. But even then He chose to never fail me.

I don’t understand love like that. I mean, a part of me does. I guess. I have many friends I know who have disappointed me time and time again but I’ve never given up on them–mainly because Jesus never gives up on me. I would still gladly give up my life for any one of my friends. So maybe I do understand to a certain extent. What I really don’t get is why Christ could love me so much, when I know I don’t deserve it. When He knows I don’t deserve it.

Love like that makes me tremble inside with tears I don’t dare let out becuase they won’t ever stop. Knowing that He loves me even though He knows I’m still going to screw up and that He’ll forgive me even then. Knowing that no matter what I do or where I go, He’ll never forget me or leave me alone. Knowing that no matter how much I disappoint Him, He’ll always be there for me. That kind of safety and security is more than comfort. It’s everything. How could I live without it? How could I make it through a day without knowing that He’s there, listening to me, laughing with me (and probably at me), loving me so intensely?

I’m thankful. So thankful.

Last night was wonderful to sit in a room of over a thousand of my brothers and sisters and remember Christ’s death. But I’m very excited for tonight and tomorrow when I’ll join them all again to celebrate the fact that Christ didn’t stay dead. That’s what Easter is all about. Not a shared spirit of humanity .  . . . I saw that on a news blurb this morning. Not bunnies or candies or baskets left on doorsteps. Easter is hope, knowing that this crazy life isn’t all there is, that there’s something bigger and better coming and that we can be a part of it.

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Update on My New Job

So at the end of tomorrow I will have completed my first week at my new job, and I’m still in a daze. To think that there could be a job that actually fits me so well . . . . I’m in shock. Writing. Proofreading. Computer work. Web editing. It’s everything I love to do. PLUS I get to work with some really nice people too. The only frustrating part at this point is learning how to do everything. I have so much to do, but I’ve only been trained on a small part of it at this point. For instance, I’m going to be maintaining a couple of different company web pages, but I haven’t really been trained on the web site program yet. It’s a specialized program that I’ve never used before, and while I’m fairly certain that I can probably dink around and get into it, I don’t want to mess anything up. So I’m waiting. Meanwhile, everything that needs to be done to it is slowly accumulating. But that’s all right—as soon as I’m able to figure it out, I’ll get it all done.

I’ve got a lot to learn very quickly. There’s a bunch to absorb, and I hope I’m doing all right. I’m kind of stumbling along. There are so many acronyms I have no idea how to translate. I still don’t know what POP means, but I figured out that DM means District Manager. I still don’t know a whole heck of a lot about pipes, but I’m starting to learn the difference between some of the Viega products . . . starting . . . There’s a whole lot of Greek to sift through . . . .

The Marketing department is pretty small, actually. There is the head of marketing who is the giant German man I interviewed with (he had to bend down to shake my hand). He’s very nice. Then below him are the two strategic heads of marketing, who are also extremely nice. Then there’s my boss, Tricia, who is the head of Marketing Operations. Then, the little worker bees are myself, Roberta, Davanh, Katrin, Nicole, and Judy. And that’s the whole marketing department. I’m already making friends. Roberta and I are going to go walking some time, down by the river, over lunch. And it turns out that Nicole’s daughters just recently attended a birthday party at NewSpring!!

I’ve done a lot of talking on the phone already, and I’ve got an article written—it’s just very rough. Tomorrow Nicole and I are going to the plant in McPherson for a photo shoot on the supply chain for the next issue of the magazine. That should be fun, I think. Sometime next week I’m going to call the president of a pipe-and-supply company in Dallas and ask for an interview, and I’m waiting on an article that one of our sales guys was going to send me to proof. I’ve also been proofing a bunch of different things—from full-page ads to interoffice memos and letters. A lot of their editing/proofing work they had sent out of the company to have done because apparently no one here was qualified to edit and proof. Now they’ve got me, so I anticipate that I’ll be doing a lot more of that in the future.

I also have been told that I will be going to New Hampshire for a small training seminar. And it’s a pretty sure deal that I will be going either to Chicago or Kansas City for an on-site interview. I think I’m going to have business cards and I will also have a company credit card (which scares the living daylights out of me).

In any case, I am constantly reminding myself that to whomever much has been given, of him shall be much expected. I’m looking at this job as a real gift from God, and I want to do my very best to meet not only my employers’ expectations of me—but especially what God expects of me. No matter how many ways I figure it, I did receive a significant raise in pay as well, and I need wisdom to know how to handle that. I’m also still reeling at the difference in the morning hours. I’m used to leaving the house at 6:00 am . . . now I don’t have to leave until a little after 7:00 am and I’m still early! I want to balance my morning out. I don’t want to get up too early, but now that I have some free time—maybe I can actually do a real devotion in the morning instead of my usual prayer-and-praise time in the car on the way to work.

I guess I just need wisdom. So that’s what I’m seeking, and there’s no better source for wisdom than the Bible.

So that’s what I’ve got to say for now. Thank you to everyone who’s been praying for me and for this transition into this new job. Your prayers have worked over and above what even I was anticipating. I not only feel like I fit in here, I’m very much enjoying the work all the way around. Granted, it’s still early on in “my new career” (lol . . . that’s funny to say) but so far it rocks hardcore.

Okay. Break’s over. Back to work! And I can actually say YIPPEE! about that now!

Just want to say

I’m so freakin’ cold.

It’s still about 27 here in Haven.

I’m ready to go back to Guatemala where it was “cold” at 68!!!!

I think I acclimated to the jungle, and my system is saying, “What the heck? Where’d the heat go?”

Okay. Enough griping. I’m just in awe. It’s spring now so it should warm up. . . . . . Right. =)

Things are progressing

Wow!  It’s been a lot time since I posted!  We’re in the middle of rehearsals right now, and everyone is doing very well.  We’re doing blocking at this point, and while it can be tedious, it’s an essential step.

We’ve had a donation for the desserts, so that’s covered.  We’ve also had someone step up and say that they will get us some sound and light equipment AND run it for us.  Linda and I met with our set people yesterday, and the guy in charge of sets at church (the amazing Dale Poore) has offered to help us a little too.  So that’s very exciting.  My good friend Lisa Phillips has provided some costumes for us and may even be able to help us put some together, which is very exciting.

The whole thing is just going really well.

Will try to update more frequently.